the reason i’m posting here is bcuz i know no one reads. i feel safe
On Saturday 13th November 2010, @suffocateheart said:
I never forget my past. Like whn ppl ask if why i hangout with mostly guys in sch and nvr hang out w/ big grps of girls i do have a reason. but normally i just brush it off. Like how am i supposed to explain? oh hell, if you’re reading this means you wna know. i was bullied in pri sch kay. like really bullied. everything suck fucking balls. That’s why i started to hate bitches a lot. it’s like they made an impact in my life i’ll never forget. wait till i find my old blog and tagboard etc. i mean if i ever find it, i will show you. Idk why i was bullied too. it’s like the whole world against me. oh ya, i remembered, people said i critise the most popular girl in school blog, which i swear i didn’t. and so… the world came crashing. she confronted me in msn. i even remember the conver. bestfriends all became motherfuckers. Then, i don’t remember actually telling anyone. everyone in school can tell what a loser am i anyway. i can’t walk past any class w/o being called bitch. I had wb who i talked to every night at that time but still, i didn’t tell him abt it. i had the best girl on earth C and still i didn’t really tell her. i’m not exggerating but this lasted for years. So when i went to secondary school, i’m more than determine to 1) not get into any trouble or shit 2) not get into big grps of girls. whatever you believe or think otherwise but if you’ve asked and want to knw the reason, this is why. and this is my life i can’t do anything to change it.
i nearly died but i pulled through.
This incident made me stronger, whenever i feel like dying, i thought of this incident and think “hey! What could be worst?!”
the only reason why i’m not blogging this is because somehow i feel safer here.
I can’t imagine who will be reading this. i wanted to block some people and lock my twitter but i thought Fuck it, everyone have the down side of their life, including me. if you can’t comprehend that then say whatever you want.
